When did I live?

Do I survive?

The price I paid to experience life

Was an expensive one

What if I can’t afford it

I was drawn toward it

 Explored it

Couldn’t have ignored it

But what if ill be paying this off forever

And still end up in debt?

I’ve discovered a depth 

and complexity

The forbidden fruit has given me

A knowledge

Taken my naivety 

and given me

A new world 

To understand

This fruit is in my hand

The one I write with

But it pays to be devout

And whether in faith or in doubt

I could be bankrupt of

All my love

And innocence

And purity

This awareness of my nudity

Makes me feel fuller

And yet

Still half of what I am